I am just not hungry. Food holds no appeal for me. I look at most food and say "Meh." I eat because I have to not because I want to. I was telling Phillip tonight that if I had my way I would just drink water all day. Cold water is wonderful. I have always loved it and still do. I am wondering if my food indifference has to do with the fact that I am still in purees. Most of the stuff I eat looks like cat food. That is what Robyn told me today when I was blending up my turkey and Laughing Cow Swiss It tastes ok, but definitely not visually appealing. The surgery takes away a lot of our feelings of hunger. It comes back, they say, only not as strongly as before. Some WLS patients say they never lost their feelings of hunger. I definitely have and it is strange that this is me. On Friday, I get to move up to soft foods (food you can cut with a fork) and this will open up a wider range of foods. I am curious how that will affect how much I eat. I still have not felt nauseated since leaving the hospital nor have I thrown up. Many on my February FB group have and I suspect that one reason is that I have a larger stomach. My Dr. used a 42 bougie and many of them have a 32-36. For now, I am ok with having a larger stomach. I hope I continue to feel that way down the road.
My energy has slowly come back since the hospital stay. I still get winded, but it is less and less so. Today, I went to the grocery store for the first time and picked up a couple of things. I was not speedy, but I got it done. I am happy to get back to my normal duties. I don't like having my family and friends pick up my slack. I know they do it out of love and I love them even more for it. But...I still don't like it.
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